Oh jesus. He just started kissing me out of nowhere. This is nice though. I have butterflies! Ah, yes, this feels nice.

I’ve wanted this since I was sixteen years old. I’ve wanted this since I was sixteen years old and now I’m finally doing it. Sixteen year old me would be so happy right now.

Maybe we’ll just make out for hours. That could be fun. And would be totally innocent. I mean, he couldn’t possibly expect anything else, right? This is the first time we’ve hung out in years.

I don’t understand this whole french kissing thing. What is so awesome about rubbing our tongues together? It doesn’t do anything for me. In fact, all I can think about is what his tongue looks like. Is it gross looking?

God, I hope he isn’t leaving a hickey. But I guess if he is, ***** might notice and get jealous. I can brag about it to ****. I’m not a loser after all! I don’t need his suggestions! I can get guys on my own!

Holy crap, he unsnapped my bra fast. I can’t even do that. What is he doing now? Trying to pull it off my shoulder? I just.. I don’t understand.. What.. is this? He wouldn’t go up my dress, would he?

He’s rubbing my leg. I hope he isn’t grossed out. I definitely haven’t shaved my legs in a few days. I am not prepared for this at all. Gah, why is he rubbing lower on my leg? It’s all hairy! I promise!

Oh dear. Should I help him with the underwear situation? I hope he doesn’t think these are granny panties. They’re boy shorts! Should I help him? He doesn’t seem to be able to get in.. Nope.. That side isn’t working either. Oh okay, my underwear is just going to come off because you pulled on one side. Yeah, that’s gonna work. Should I help him? Do I want to help him?

Oh good lord. That is not my clit. I don’t even think that’s inside my vagina. He’s never going to find my clit. This is doomed. Maybe I should just pretend he’s got it right? Yeah, just moan a little bit.. Maybe it’ll encourage him to explore more..

Is he.. Is he unbuttoning his pants? What else could he be doing, right? Uh, should I say something? Does he think we’re going to have sex? We are not having sex. I can’t have sex with him. Uh oh. He just said something. What did he say?! Oh. I guess that’s what he was saying. Yeah, I suppose I could jerk you off. Just as long as you don’t make me suck your dick.

Fine. You can take my underwear off. If it’ll help you out with this whole fingering situation.

Wait! WAIT! We aren’t having sex!! Oh thank god.

Ha! Is that a trick question? Why do guys always ask that? What girl LIKES giving head, honestly?

What is he doing now…?

Oh. Okay. I guess if I opened my eyes, I would see him leaning over me with his dick in my face. Got it. Big sigh. Fine.

Huh. This is new. I’ve never given a guy head while he fingered me. This isn’t so bad actually. His isn’t even big enough to choke me with either. Thank god. And I can even do those little moaning noises without feeling like a complete ass.

Remember to grip the base of his penis. Guys like that. And suck on the tip. They like that too. Gah, yeah, you do the work, just fuck my mouth for a while, my neck’s getting tired anyways.

Wait, didn’t he just cum? Can’t I stop now? Oh, apparently not..

Jesus, it sounds like you’re close, just do it already!

Oh, there it is. Okay, now just… swallow it..

Puke. Why did I think cum tasted just fine? This shit is nasty.

Oooh.. Yeah, thanks for the offer of something to spit in.. But I’m covered…

How thoughtful. Water would be great.

God, your cum tasted disgusting. Eat something sweet sometime, k?

Alright, his back’s turned, get your underwear on.

Try to clasp the bra. Fail. Leave it then. Maybe it’ll look fine.

A cigarette sounds great.

Awkward silence.

Maybe you should just leave? Yeah, that’s probably a good idea.

Huh. He doesn’t wanna get a blowjob and then just kick me out? Right…

Is he still naked? Please tell me he’s not just sitting there in his shirt.. I don’t wanna look and see his penis.. Oh, he’s got boxers on. When did he put those on? Huh. They must’ve been on the whole time. Weird.

This isn’t so awkward. Just chatting about work. Man, I kinda miss Jack in the Box now. Maybe I should go back. At least I’d know what I was doing. Dad would probably kill me though.

Text **** - he must know what I’ve accomplished.

Try to get the bra on again. Fail again. Just take it off and shove it in your purse while he’s not looking. Score.

Right. Awkward silence again. Just leave this time.

Oh, he’s walking me out. How gentlemanly.

Do something again? Something other than this? Oh, empty promises. I’ll probably never hear from him again..

I’m not a slut, right? This is the first guy I’ve done stuff with since.. Yeah, that night. And that was drunk. So that doesn’t count. This is the first sober sexual thing I’ve done in… years. So I’m definitely not a slut.

At least he hugged me. That makes me feel a little better.